While avoiding the drudge work at Ctrip, I stumbled across the theory of neoteny in evolution. Neoteny is when infant features appear in adults ie when we evolve “backward” such that we display childlike characteristics, presumably mentally as well as physically. Paradoxically, moving backward is going forward: evolution in primates is a steady procession back […]
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Scattered Fam
So we’re on the eternal search for “the Spot” that will allow me to sip tea and write best sellers while bean makes big big money and the lil ones scamper. Possible locations are (were) 1) Pacific Northwest, specifically Portland and Northern Cali, but also and not limited to Canada or northern Washington. 2) Dali […]
Another Son
Two boys now, depending on me to show them the way. For at least half their lives willingly and then for another 1/4 or so even though they resent it (at least that’s the pattern right?) and then later in life as a friend. This time I was able to witness the birth first hand. […]
Dorian’s First Birthday
Lil Dorian turned one on February 8th and we went to our old stomping gronds in San Sheng Xiang to celebrate with good friends. The Love’s were there and we went to our neighbors Xu Lin’s spot for lunch and tea. Her son FanFan was there and so was Bean’s father Laoba. Chinese have a […]
Christmas in Heidelberg
This Christmas Bean Stinky and I are spending time i Heidelberg with my family. Heidelberg is a tidy, historic old city on the Neckar River with one of Germany’s oldest castles standing gutted yet proud atop the highest point in the city, overlooking rows of warm roofs and houses as well as two beautiful churches. […]
Mixed Blood Prince
I wrote another small essay about raising children in China, specifically about mixed-blood babies and how they are treated here and what they can expect. Chinese grandmas swarm over any cute baby they see, but they tend to ignore Chinese babies in favor of mixed blood or all-foreign babies. There is a love and curiosity […]
Just in Case My Baby Calls
Bean made homemade hotpot two days ago and the last of it just got slurped up … I won’t tell you what’s happening now in the household, but just remember that every rose has its thorn. I took some pictures of our hotpot night and even though they are wak technically, they still manage to […]
Oh Lord lets figure it out ….
The love I made this afternoon is thanks to the following:
Little Man
Today has been a good day. above is a pic of lil man and his brother — the other boy was born in the same room, Yushi and the mom knew each other and she gave birth a few hours before Yushi did.
Beginning to feel the 安
安 means peace and is represented by a woman under a roof. I always figured this character was a bit patriarchal … but now that i have a mama and a lil one under my roof … i know what them old sages were talking about. Its the 30th according to the Chinese Lunar calender, […]
Bean’s Belly
Some pics from this evening:
My man Fu Qiang
Has just opened up a shop selling his CDs (compilations of music he digs) and art. He takes pictures and uses software to make his own impressions. pretty interesting stuff. You can check his site out right here. Here is a picture of Fu that he manipulated into an oil painting-type image: Here is a […]
redemption is just one way of saying
my job is to pull you back from the brink of darknessprotect you from the prince of shadowsshow you the flower in all seasonskeep you fed, fat and gigglinggive you a blanket when its coldbuild a home for you to waltz inshore up the foundation when it crumblesso that i might be the man i’ve […]
A new leaf
As you can see, I have changed a few colors on the blog. let me know what you think. I have been writing for Antiwar.com again, have a regular column coming out, not yet sure exactly which days, but I will let you know. The first one I wrote in a while got me called […]
Free to Post
I wrote an essay a while back about censorship in China, for Antiwar.com, and I basically said that within the parameters of black and white, all life transpires. Well i am now, thanks to Freedur, safely within the gray. Freedur is a VPN protocol that allows me to surf through a proxy and avoid sneaky, […]
GUA
Ni zai kan ma?? Ni GUADEBUDELIAO! dajia dou xiaode.
My Rainy Poem
Zhang Yushi — Yu means rain, Shi mean poem or poetry or poet … depending. i met her for the first time back in the days when i was a real rake and rastabout. tenzin my man and i were playing chess in the ole cafe in Fanghua Gai in Yulin. I remember two giggling […]
A long hiatus makes for a rambling post
So i will begin with an introduction: hi, this has been inaccessible for me for some time, but now i have hotpost shield so its all good (addendum: not all good). I am still in Chengdu and fly out of here on the 30th to Shanghai and then back to SFO for a while. Now […]
One Last Roast
Indeed, I wrote a lot about how perfect my “Leaving” is, as it comes almost to the day when i arrived 8 years ago. I spoke a lot about how everything seems pre-ordained. Well, now I am beginning to experience what that actually means. These days in Beijing will be a further searing of my […]